The man who feels himself solitary is the most readily disposed and most readily fitted for the self-reflection; that is the man who by nature or destiny or both is alone with himself and his problematic, and who succeeds, in this blank solitude, in meeting himself, in discovering man in his own self, and the human problematic in his own.
This man is I as I grow up within my ‘singleness’, learning from my fall but opening up to the marvelous possibilities that the world unleashes before my eyes.
I have spoken to a lot of people and heaps of couple about Love, or about not finding it. Or worse, having it while the other spoils it…
I have this example of a great man, who like me (even if the adjective doesn’t apply to me), met his girlfriend in an environment where it was more than unexpected to meet a match. Easy women or even cheap whores all around, the rule of supply and demand applying for the love scene as well, it wasn’t obvious that he would go for a western woman. Isn’t it in the human nature to look for comfort But hey, the courting game went well, and as she was meeting him every week-end he was dreaming about her all week long. And the things went well…
He left his life and job to follow her when she got a great opportunity abroad. It is important to have priority one should say, and being with the one you love is one of them. I did change my life for hers too…
Three years went by, and they kept on moving places together: he learnt a new job within the same field as hers to be able to follow her as she was climbing the ladder getting to the highest ranks of the hierarchy, as she was screwing with her boss…
He found out lately and moved back to where he was originally from, poisoned by the things she was saying while she was fucking around with their common life.
So much for faithfulness…
He will need time to reconsider any kind of emotional commitiment, I even feel that I will not make NEW friends before a long time.
I have moved on enough now, and I will not get into this stupid cliché about women always cheating on their partners, as it is not true. But I have also moved on with my concept of the couple, and I think I have found my way.
Fact: it is always when something is forbidden that it gets more appealing.
Fact: if all things are possible, then it is a choice made only by reference to one self values and not by other kind of psychological pressure.
I am not jealous by nature, I actually think that I am too trustful to be able to really grasp the concept of being jealous. Maybe too dumb or with way to much ego also… (Note to myself: get an answer to this last point).
So instead of trying to remain in a world where my life doesn’t intersect with the life of another soul, but hopefully parallels hers at least; I have decided to look at my natural point of view on things and apply them. I will not observe my hopes and fears as I try to remain sane in a world from which I feel increasingly excluded due to a lack of compliance with accepted rites and standards.
I am devoting myself to my true nature and I am going to keep on improving myself and help my tribe to get better and better. I am choosing my style over the imposed stupid social standards…
There, I have set my way and I am definitely starting to brush my wings.
I am back to my strong self.
Has fate something to do with what will happen? I doubt it.
When has fate ever been kind?
I had a nice talk with an angel last night, as a member of my tribe was going through a tough time.
I had a difficult talk with the latter as the angel was twirling on a different ground.
I saw a smile appearing on the face of my tribe mate, I listened to my angel telling me about her encounter with the sleazy man and laughed about it with her.
I am here and I am standing.
You can rely on me because I have supported myself and I took me out of the shit hole I let myself fall into.
Let’s make it to the next level now…
This man is I as I grow up within my ‘singleness’, learning from my fall but opening up to the marvelous possibilities that the world unleashes before my eyes.
I have spoken to a lot of people and heaps of couple about Love, or about not finding it. Or worse, having it while the other spoils it…
I have this example of a great man, who like me (even if the adjective doesn’t apply to me), met his girlfriend in an environment where it was more than unexpected to meet a match. Easy women or even cheap whores all around, the rule of supply and demand applying for the love scene as well, it wasn’t obvious that he would go for a western woman. Isn’t it in the human nature to look for comfort But hey, the courting game went well, and as she was meeting him every week-end he was dreaming about her all week long. And the things went well…
He left his life and job to follow her when she got a great opportunity abroad. It is important to have priority one should say, and being with the one you love is one of them. I did change my life for hers too…
Three years went by, and they kept on moving places together: he learnt a new job within the same field as hers to be able to follow her as she was climbing the ladder getting to the highest ranks of the hierarchy, as she was screwing with her boss…
He found out lately and moved back to where he was originally from, poisoned by the things she was saying while she was fucking around with their common life.
So much for faithfulness…
He will need time to reconsider any kind of emotional commitiment, I even feel that I will not make NEW friends before a long time.
I have moved on enough now, and I will not get into this stupid cliché about women always cheating on their partners, as it is not true. But I have also moved on with my concept of the couple, and I think I have found my way.
Fact: it is always when something is forbidden that it gets more appealing.
Fact: if all things are possible, then it is a choice made only by reference to one self values and not by other kind of psychological pressure.
I am not jealous by nature, I actually think that I am too trustful to be able to really grasp the concept of being jealous. Maybe too dumb or with way to much ego also… (Note to myself: get an answer to this last point).
So instead of trying to remain in a world where my life doesn’t intersect with the life of another soul, but hopefully parallels hers at least; I have decided to look at my natural point of view on things and apply them. I will not observe my hopes and fears as I try to remain sane in a world from which I feel increasingly excluded due to a lack of compliance with accepted rites and standards.
I am devoting myself to my true nature and I am going to keep on improving myself and help my tribe to get better and better. I am choosing my style over the imposed stupid social standards…
There, I have set my way and I am definitely starting to brush my wings.
I am back to my strong self.
Has fate something to do with what will happen? I doubt it.
When has fate ever been kind?
I had a nice talk with an angel last night, as a member of my tribe was going through a tough time.
I had a difficult talk with the latter as the angel was twirling on a different ground.
I saw a smile appearing on the face of my tribe mate, I listened to my angel telling me about her encounter with the sleazy man and laughed about it with her.
I am here and I am standing.
You can rely on me because I have supported myself and I took me out of the shit hole I let myself fall into.
Let’s make it to the next level now…
