Cold days seem to hurt the most

Cold days seem to hurt the most and I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go: I see your smile, I see your face and imagine you going ‘brrrrrrrrrr’, warming up your nose with your palm.
I hear you laughing in the rain, still can't believe you’re gone!How could you just loose it?
So simply, so totally?
It is now like a story that had just begun and already finished.
God knows how I sometimes miss you.
All the hell that I've been through!
All the hell you have put me through when you needed support.
Sometimes I wonder who you are today.

Do you enjoy your world?
Will you chase your dreams again?
These dreams you sold cheap, so fuckin’ cheap!
Settle down with a family, another one?
I wonder what you will name your babies!
Some day’s the sky's so blue, I feel like I can talk to you!
And I know it might sound crazy.

Usually after these few minutes, I look around and sight. I look at my world and I embrace it.
Maybe one day I will settle down and have a family but never will I stop chasing my dream: even you couldn’t stop me. And I know it is part of the issue: you are a control freak, because you are unsecure.
When the sky is so blue, as blue as your beautiful eyes, I am happy to realize that I am blessed to have known you, but i am happier not to be your partner anymore.

I still wonder who you ever have been!