Typically, my thoughts at night

Well, nothing could summarize better why I ended it...

But if you do not find an intelligent companion, a wise and well-behaved person going the same way as yourself, then go on your way alone, like a king abandoning a conquered kingdom, or like a great elephant in the deep forest. - Buddha

That's the truth...

So mote it be!

Today was a good and big day for me.

I went to the grave of my grand father to close a chapter of my life, easing my mind more.

For 18 years i have been living with guilt: i was convinced that i had seen my dead grand father after he hung himself and that i left him, just walking away.
I felt guilty of not beeing able to listen to his pain the night before he killed himself.

18 years of guilt but also probably what lead me to try to help whoever for 18 years, not giving up even when it obviously was hopeless or when i would deeply suffer.
Early this year, after talking to my mother, i learned that i didn't sleep over at his place and that i couldn't possibly be guilty of anything like this since i only got news when he was at the morgue.

I am not guilty of letting anyone down nor not handing in a responsible way such a crisis involving someone i love.

And i went wearing a shirt i bought with my princess, smelling like her perfume that she spread all over while in Hong Kong earlier this month: i was with her and i waved her good bye as i waived him good bye.

So long!

Why I left you, you might realize one day

Yeah, i guess i needed to write this down somewhere but didn't wish to stir up my princess' feelings and head/heart more: i decided to write it here.

Waking up one morning, after a long and fulfilling night of good thinking, it became clear that i was the catalyzer, i was not of any help at all. Exisitng was what was making her pain deeper when i was physically away from her: as she was left alone and let her mind take control she was suffering so much. All her fears and worst thoughts would take control and she would suffer!!!!

I had given nothing or taken away nothing away from her from the day i met her til the day i left her; nothing but me.

During that night I figured out that demons enter the mind when we resist them. The stronger our effort to fortify ourselves against temptation or any other kind of alikes, the stronger the temptation has us in its grip: the fact that i existed was already too much and just helped her demons get wilder and stronger into her mind.

She was totally trapped by her clinging and cravings.

Her mind was and still is probably like a runaway coach and the driver never stops whipping the horses.

Many scriptures and books assure us that this physical world is a mask, and yet the mask isn't physical. It's made of illusion, and illusion is created by the mind. Do you understand? What the mind has created, only the mind can undo. It was necessary to help this hug task to take place, since she said she wanted this to happen.

But she has to get rid and over these illusions by seeing reality as it is. This could never be achieved when at the center of a chaos. Since she couldn't remove herself from this suffering and see what we had, i had to do it. Maybe this will help her in her quest for her true self, as she calls it, since she believes in separate selves.

I wish someone could tell her what i have come to see: you that you can be whole, but only if you see yourself this way. There is no holy life. There is no war between good and evil. There is no sin and no redemption. None of these things matter to the true you. But they all matter hugely to the false you, the one who believes in the separate self. You have tried to take your separate self, with all its loneliness and anxiety and pride, on the path of and to the door of enlightment. But it will maybe walk the path but never go through cause it is a ghost.

You know princess, I can see that you are at war inside. You must believe that you will never win. No one has never won the war. Good opposes evil the way the summer sun opposes winter cold, the way light opposes darkness. They are built into the eternal scheme of Nature. This is pretty easy to accept as a concept and a way of being.
So, there is no point to try to conquer evil or embrace good: can you do that with the summer sun or the winter cold? Just detach yourself from both.
It isn't difficult. Actually, once you admitted to yourself that you would never become completely good or free of sin, something changes inside. You are no longer distracted by the war; and your attention can go somewhere else: that when you start reaching yourself. You are not a warrior. You are not a prisoner of desire, well you are at the moment. Those things come and go.

Just ask yourself: who is watching the war? Who do i return to when the pain is over, or when the pleasure is over? Who is content simply to be? You too have felt the peace of simply being. Wake up to that!

Break free and just let this amazing person you have trapped inside walk free and tall.

I love you and only wishes for your happiness, i had to disappear in order to allow your mind to calm down: focusing on what a wanker i am is better than all this pain you had to deal with. This would allow her to maybe find what really matters: who she really is and maybe even get her to love herself!
this will give her a chance not to vanquish the demons but to find a place already safe from them.

I am sad to have to cut myself from such a beautiful soul to be, but i had to detach myself from this story which was turning way too painful for you as i couldn't help you: you can't save people from themselves. I know you understand...

So i had to leave you...

We live only once, at a time, so here is the chance to make this great!

All the best my princess, my love!

The past is heavy to carry

Rules Of Life As I See Them

1. YOU ARE THE SOLE CREATOR OF YOUR REALITY AND NO ONE CAN CREATE IN YOUR REALITY.
2. NOTHING IS EVER ABOUT A PERSON, THING OR PLACE.
3. EVERY PERSON, THING OR PLACE IS SIMPLY A MIRROR AND HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE A GIFT FOR YOU IF YOU ACCEPT IT.
4. AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT, YOU EITHER ARE GIVING LOVE, OR ASKING FOR LOVE.
5. EVERYTHING IS GOD, FOR GOD IS ALL THERE IS. THEREFORE, I AND YOU MUST BE GOD, TOO. GOD IS YOUR PERSONAL CONCEPTION OF ANYTHING HIGHER.

When I attach a value and a meaning to some event, I am creating a perception.
In other words, it is my choice how to interpret what happened. I will usually interpret an event by seeing it through whatever issues or beliefs I already have going on inside of me.
In other words, how I choose to see something, the perception I have of an event, is not necessarily what is happening, but how I choose to view it.
If I have anger, I will likely interpret what someone says as sounding angry. If I clear myself of internal issues, I can choose to and will be able to interpret "and create" things from a higher vibrational state. Whatever perceptions I have, and then living by those perceptions, determines the reality I will have.

If as a small child, I see my father being angry. My perception of that event is that I am the reason he is angry - if I were a better child he wouldn't be angry. This perception then becomes a part of my life. I have a perception that I am a bad person, and therefore I always perceive that people are angry at me. Or, I relate to others in fear.

If you perceive or make a decision somewhere along the way that you are a "bad" person and responsible for other people's emotions, for making them feel "bad", then you will go through life hating yourself, thinking you are "evil", perhaps without knowing it. You may feel constantly ashamed and guilty. You will continue to create situations where you feel bad about yourself, where you think you have done something wrong. You will, in all likelihood, create your life where things always seem to go wrong, and relationships and life will probably become a fearful thing for you.

And, all of this will change as your perception and understanding of how the universe works becomes clearer - such as the understanding that no one can create the reality of another. And your life will also change when any false perceptions you have about yourself, as well, are made conscious - and you change them.

When you know that you are responsible ONLY for what you believe and what you feel, and when you KNOW that others are responsible only for what they feel and believe, that feelings and beliefs about reality can only come from within, from what each person chooses to believe, there is no longer shame or blame, guilt or self hatred. Then you have the opportunity to believe and create your life in any way you choose - in a good way that works for you. You no longer believe it if others try to blame you, and you no longer blame anyone else for your life. That is being the CREATOR of your life.
You choose consciously, not unconsciously, what you want to believe - you perceive yourself and life and others in a way that is positive and allows life to work harmoniously for you.
If you remain a victim, in victim consciousness, things don't change, because victims never heal. How can they, if they never accept that they are the ones responsible for creating life that way in the first place? You can't change something if you don't think you created it to begin with - or, if you don't believe that you even HAVE the power to create or change anything. Victims remain stuck, thinking it's someone else's fault, and that someone else has the power over their life, to create their life a certain way, instead of themselves.
As soon as I give up 100% responsibility for creating my own reality, as soon as I give up the responsible role, as soon as I think someone is doing something to me, I have become a victim. Other's responses to me are, in reality, only a reflection of my own energy, a reflection of whatever energy I am putting out, or have inside of me.

In other words, if you have a perception that someone is a hurtful person, you must have a belief that you will be hurt. They then just play the role for you that you are expecting. You create what you believe in.

When I come from the lower vibrational state, I will be viewing things as judgments. I will make judgments about myself or about another. The higher vibration is to see whatever happens as a mirror of myself in the Now: "I see you doing that. I want to judge you for it. Instead, I will see that it is a reflection of the energy I either hold in myself, or have held in myself. So, I realize that I do that, or have done that."
I ask myself, "Am I still doing that? Where do I still hold that judgment (which I want to put out on you) about myself - where do I still think that I am not ok?" I identify the judgment I'm making against myself. I ask: "What part of me do I still not love, and therefore I judge it?" Then I look at the other person and think: "I don't need to judge them. They are simply being a mirror of my own issue." I ask: "What in me created that in my reality?" In reality, all of us are really asking for love, which is what we all truly want.
Saying: "What is the mirror to me?" instantly removes the judgment. Then there is no charge. There is only acceptance. Acceptance is the higher vibration. It is above forgiveness, because forgiveness implies that something has been done wrong. Acceptance says all is happening perfectly, as it should. All is perfect.

Whatever is happening enables us to grow, if we look at it from being the Creator, not the victim. If we look at it all as perfect, we immediately move into the energy of Love, Trust, and Peace. Then there is no judgment. If it's complicated, it's not Truth.

Know that if you feel anger or any other unpleasant or uncomfortable emotion, you must carry that energy within you. It isn't because of what someone else did. The situation just reflected what was already there in you. Then you have the opportunity to see what the mirror is for you, to see what you carry within yourself so that you can heal, grow, and change - therefore, seeing your reflection in another or in a situation is a positive and useful thing.

Thought triggers emotion.
See what kind of thoughts you are thinking, and what kind of emotion that creates. Tune into how you feel. Use your 5 senses to ask if something doesn't feel right or comfortable in the way you are responding or feeling. If you don't like the emotion you are feeling, change the thoughts you are thinking. Get a new perspective, in other words. Healing comes from the #3 law - taking responsibility.

The word emotion is a fascinating word.
Look at it this way, allow me to play with this word: E-motion, or ‘Energy, put into motion’. That is what our emotions do. They move energy and bring things into motion, or manifestation. The force behind what we feel is what allows us to create. First we have our thought, or perception. But it is the emotional energy, the fuel, that allows something to get created. "I felt so strongly about that that I had to rush out and do it". Therefore, to create in a positive way, we must generate positive emotions from clear thoughts and perceptions.

Lower vibration: expectation judgment rejection/blames orrow/apologizing
Higher vibration:responding from compassion / observing / acceptance / seeing the mirror

Fear is only a mask of your true desire. You need to find out what your true desire is, and state that desire 100% positively: "I choose to have or create...."

There are 3 universal fears:

1. abandonment
2. not feeling worthy or good enough
3. loss of trust which equals to fear of surrender

Any time there is a fear, it will fall into one or more of these categories. Check out what your fear is about. You will continue to create the same kind of situations, you will keep yourself in judgment, you will reinforce the lower vibrational state of thinking it's someone else's fault, and you will keep yourself in the perception of being victimized, until you get out of the program and have a new perception.

Snapshot

Come talk to me, talk to me...

Come on princess...

Come on, the camera is rolling...

Get that fuckin' thing from me...

Loose that!!... Talk to me... Who are you on this earth?...

God choose, but probably also forgot to do something or did too much?

?????

Two...

Why being part of the problem and not of the solution?

Oh gosh, It could all be so simple!

But you'd rather make it hard, or brittle!

Loving you is like a battle and the constant pokings are making me weak when you need me strong. We both end up with scars, even if we both mended deep wounds, i think.

Tell me, who I have to be?!

No one loves you more than me and, i hope now that i am wrong, no one ever will!

Is this just a silly game that forces you to act this way?

Forces you to scream my name then pretend that you can't stay, or that i abandonned you?

Tell me, who I have to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh, if only you could have seen how much i loved you, how much i still do.

The King, The Queen and The Fool

It is early morning, sitting in my couch I think about my good friends going through the Lovers’ game and unfortunately not getting the best out of it.

It reminds me of these moments when I was caught in the middle of the insane game, in the fight of every minutes against the world and myself.

It is amazing how strong you believe that the one you aim at came along when you needed a savior.

Relying on the person, feeling the support and believing that this one savior will pull you through somehow. But we all know that the past is heavy and that because you have been torn apart so many times, you are counting on the other one now.

By doing this you just expose your chest again even if someone already broke your heart.

This very moment will always fascinate me.

It is no rational and goes against anything a normal human being would advise, but then all normal human beings have done it more than once.

Someone already broke your heart, and yet you are going to letthis happen again.

Somebody did break your heart but maybe you need more pain.

So, here you are and all you beg for is not to be left stranded.

You stress and wonder.

All your reality doesn’t worth anything because you hang on the edge of a lie.

But who the hell is lying?

Your previous wounds weren’t as healed as you thought: torn apart, broken hearted all you want is care and kindness. You want someone by your side, because you are cold and lonely.

You want someone to hold you tight and never leave. You are down on your knees and afraid, you hope to have someone supporting you.

You are in Love and you bleed because you don’t know...

That’s the very moment you become monarchy.

You are the King or the Queen of your own sorrows.

In this chess of Love, are you really King/Queen or more the fool?

You are playing but you don’t wanna lose.

It would break your heart, torn you apart.
That’s when you are fully you.

Your soul tries to reach out and jumps out of your skin. This isn’t pain you feel, this is excitement.
This passion burns you, consumes you.

If you don’t act you will torn yourself apart and break someone’s heart.
Because you both are on the edge of the same lie!!!
Because you both are monarchy, I am the fool.
Jut act.

La boucle est bouclee.

Fabas indulcet fames*

I was on an emotional rollercoaster when i was with you, and what i ride it has been!
Trying to be with you, Loving you wasn't healthy.
You were my favorite cake but you weren't good for me.
It was just not natural the way it was, it wasn't right even if you definitely are gathering a lot of the things i am attracted to.
I inquired about who you are and what you really do every day. I decided to know more about you not just listen to who you think you are.
I have just been analyzing, without passion, facts and tried to find out why i was so found of you at some stage.
You are gifted and beautiful that's a fact, and that's the truth. I have always been attracted by gifted women, their glow is honey to me. This is why i kept on flying to your little light and disregarded to window i was bumping into every time.
But, as a person, you haven't reached any state of achievement and your constant struggle with reality, your incapacity to understand some basic principles have made you an insecure woman. This insecurity made me feel guilty and somehow the white knight in me wanted to save you from your fears and show you how great Life is. I wanted to drag you away from your personal hell.

It was also because i was hungry for Love, i was in need of providing Love. I have so much to give, for free!
This hunger made you shinnier to my eyes.

Your little light and my hunger, i have set myself up. This is the reaso why i was so uncomfortable sometimes and the main reason why communicating with you was so difficult.
In a way, you were correct when you said i was in Love with the idea of you.
I am glad you walked away.

You don't even seem to be worth a friend.
Are you capable of being a friend?
Do i really care?

* hunger makes everything taste good

Dreaming and Pretending

It is Sunday morning and for some strange reasons, I am trying to think about my life: probably because I am reaching a couple of anniversary dates.

I have met you and put all the energy I thought was necessary to help things go well, smooth. Spoiling some of my good time just because I thought it would help and improve whatever needed to be improved. But Fame is filled with spoiled children who grow fat on fantasy.
And I guess that's why I'm turning the page, because I’m craving for reality.

The main point that my morning thinking is leading me to, the crucial thing is that there is a difference between dreaming and pretending. I was obviously pretending and trying too hard.

I did not find paradise: My lonely mind was only twinkling reality, searching for what is missing in my Life or what I thought was missing. The big surprise is that I wasn’t expecting that you would be the one doing so much to me. I thought we were good together, I saw us in the mirror of your eyes and I was sure it was good. My Mind was screaming it out loud; My Heart was beating for it. But one’s Heart can hallucinate if it's completely starved for Love.

So what happened? Well, I guess the arrows of Love were turned against me. I was the one grapping then and I have been the one gasping when I used them to cut the last of my heartstring. Surprisingly it opened my eyes, You opened my eyes.

There is a difference between dreaming and pretending. And looking back in the mirror of your eyes I now believe it wasn’t Love but most probably just a reflection of my lonely mind wanting what was missing in my Life. What I thought was missing.

So what is the difference between dreaming and pretending?
Dreaming is a good thing: it helps conceptualizing the first bricks and leads to bring new things to life. Pretending is the worse you could do to yourself as it is purely an ending that perpetuates a lie: you forget what you are and makes you see what your mind yields you too see. I need to grow up. I need to grow up and keep on dreaming. You need to learn to focus and channel your dreams.
I need to trust my ability to understand the difference between the ones you can hold and the ones that you've been sold. So I guess all it was, was pretending.

I am still wishing that I am wrong while going through this morning thinking.
The only thing which could prove me wrong is a sign, a real sign…

I think it was just my wandering mind wanting and wishing that you were what was missing in my Life. The Mind is a beautiful thing, so should my Life be.
I am still smiling when I think about You, the air around me got suddenly thinner because I think about myself lightly.
I am still aspiring for someone to share things with, to talk to. For talking at its best being an inspiration, it wants a corresponding divine quality of receptiveness, and where will you find this but in You?

AGNOSCO VETERIS VESTIGIA FLAMMAE

e-Relationship

What is this?
It is an illusion i guess, that's true.
It is 4 days of touch, sharing, contact, holding, looking, smelling: 4 days of intense moments with planning of days to come.
'Everyday is a new day' i said, 'i'll be like this everyday for you, my princess'.
But hey, ghosts are chasing and walls building up really fast...
It isn't my job to chase ghosts in your head, your heart, i am a white knight but this is your fight.
Men have been trying a lot of tricks to get you, haven't they?

I am who you see, who you touch, smell and who you talk to.
Don't put words into my mouth, just get kisses and words from it.
Don't put intentions on my act, just look at them with attention.

Trust us and see complicity apearing.

e-relationship is fast but unfortunately, there isn't an e-heart nor an e-brain...

Fuck, this soooooo fucked up.

The idea of you and the air I carry around.

I believe that uncertainty is really my spirit’s way of whispering, “I’m in flux, I can’t decide for you. Something is off balance".
This uncertainty is the fuel to all my feelings and, unfortunately also the reason why i never know if I should speak about them, nor share them.
It is obvious that a lack of communication is as bad as total openness, unfortunately I do not sense up to what level I can go.
Talking about feelings is easy, sharing them or unveiling them is difficult.

The Idea I had of you was, clearly, not different from who you seem to be.
The air I carry around leads, unfortunately, people to picture me as a totally different man and you are one of them.
The Idea I had of you is still making me smile, I will keep on smiling regardless.
The air I carry around is still creating damages as it yields people that I am not who I seem to be: there would be, they believe, another man hiding.

MisterWing would be closer to Doctor Jeckyll and Mister Hyde than to himself?

You cannot change people mind, nor should you try as that would be manipulation. The only thing you can do is open your heart and mind for them to look into you and make up their own mind. By doing so, I am also putting myself in grave danger as I remove all protective layers and expose my core, Me. Sincerity is something that people are not used to and when they sense something like this is happening they refuse to believe and start elaborating theories, they speak about lies… They feel betrayed, used and trapped.
Without trying to manipulate ones mind, I am facing a bigger problem as I can only put facts in front of passionate accusations. How could bare facts and acts beat deeply engrained feelings of betrayal? What should I do to make people understand that I am who they see, should this be a concern? Well, actually, it is not:

If you can solve your problem, then what is the need of worrying?
If you cannot solve it, then what is the use of worrying?
I do not worry, I am just being myself.

The animosity I encounter in this kind of situation isn’t a problem as I understand where it is coming from. Just time can prove that there isn’t an underlying layer.
I will keep on living my seconds the same way. I am weighting all my acts using the three major pillars I rely on: Strength, Intelligence and Beauty.
I will keep on improving myself, strolling through the days.
It doesn’t matter what is the air you breath.

The air I carry around is a burden but thinking about You makes me smile, still.

Broken...

And luckily it isn't my right hand!

Socially Inadequate ??????

Last night, after a pretty good workout and a fantastic warm shower, as I was using a fluffy towel all over me I had a thought, well one thought that I still have in mind now.

I was in a room full of naked men, some of them being openly gay and looking at other males’ attribute, I was feeling less uneasy that when I am in a room full of clothed people!

Is it because I know I wouldn’t talk to any of the guys or just because I am less body shy that socially inadequate? The expression is now in the air.

I got to think about this one as it really summarizes one thing I am wondering about now:

Am I socially inadequate?

When it comes to writing and expressing myself to people I know or sort of know, I have no problem communicating. But if, like it happens in real life all the time, I meet someone I have never seen before I sort of tend not to get in contact and most probably act as if I am not friendly at all. For example, I have managed in the near past to walk out of a club where I went on my own and stayed for four hours without talking to anyone! And without having anyone trying to talk to me either!

On my way back home, in the cab, I asked myself:

Dude, are you socially inadequate or what? Or what?

It is rather funny as, during dinners, I am not the one in the corner just listening to the others. I usually am quiet and i usually get started when one thing triggers me. Then, I do not stop if i enjoy the crowd.
Isn't it being socially adequate?

But then again, i wouldn't talk to someone if i haven't been introduced.
Picture this: I could go to a BBQ and not talk to anyone if i haven't been introduced!
Isn't it being socially inadequate?

Or what?

Well, at least one person loves me!

Happy, happy birthday, my ever dearest (blip, censured)!

The warmest and greatest wishes for a very wonderful guy.... I want to wish you ALL the best, love, success, happiness, good fortune and good health not only today but always... May all your wishes come true...

And never forget that your are the hell of a sexy man: intellectually sexy of course...

I also want to take this opportunity to say some things....

First, THANK YOU for everything. You've been such a great friend from the very first day we met. And i really do appreciate you, your friendship and your kindness. Thank you for always being there for me. For accepting me, my good and not-so-good part. For all your time talking to me and reading my messages (eventhough, i just keep on repeating same things). For everything, thank you so much.... I want you to know that i'm always here for you and nobody and nothing can ever change my love for you... I love you so much (blip, censured) and you are very dear to me... You are one of those people whom i will cherich and treasure for the rest of my life. You are such a great person and i'm really thankful, grateful and proud for having you....

Just stay happy and keep on enjoying life... I love you and i terribly miss you, my dear friend... Take good care of yourself always, sweetheart.. God bless... mwaaah

I have been taking care of my mind and body

Man,
one year ago, almost, my best friend told me something that struck me.
We were walking in the parking lot of my former company, and heading to the car, he was behind me. With all the bluntness he is capable of, he only told me: 'man, you got fat. Your butt got pretty big.' That's one of the things i LOVE about this man, that's his free speech and i am not being sarcastic.

So, i have been taking care of my mind and body since then. I have 5 kilos to go but they will still be around when i'll turn 32 years old. So, i postpone a wee bit for these bastards!

Exercise alone provides psychological and physical benefits. However, if you also adopt a strategy that engages your mind while you exercise, you can get a whole host of psychological benefits fairly quickly.

Trust me

Love, that’s when someone's body superseeds the whole universe

At first, there was this play which title isn’t important.

I am sure I didn’t understand it all anyway. The only thing I understood was the movement of your legs, on stage. I never realized before how gorgeously shaped these were. Maybe because it was the first time I was staring at you from a first row seat, you wearing a short skirt.

With a short skirt, one can see the full length of the legs but it is always difficult to tell how beautiful these are, still discombobulated.
I wasn’t feeling like you were on stage and I was seating first row.

I was feeling like you were over me, all over me.
We were not touching, physically out of reach, but your body was stifling me.
It was even more real than the building and the whole crowd behind me.

Your body was filling up the whole space as if it was sunlight, rain, snow and wind.
Love, that’s when someone's body superseeds the whole universe.
It blocks the horizon and, as open horizon is a menacing sight, we relax.
What we are looking for in Love, is relief because we all suffer: i was relieves to feel my stress building up, stiffening up.

Then, our first kiss in the club, our first kiss for the second time, our second first kiss and the ten other thousand clubbers instantanetly vanished.
Lovers are like mass serial killers: they wipe out thousand of people in a blink.
When you kiss, that's the only moment when time, like a murderer disturbed by the police, freezes.

Mouth is where one’s Mind resides and that’s why the tongue, handling talks, and teeth, handling food, are there: because one’s Mind chats and gluttons. It is also where self and integrity lay siege.
Lips are as sweet as the ability to choose.
When they open up, spreading apart, it is always at night because we close our eyes.
Lovers are like blind invaders.
I never understood people kissing eyes wide open, especially for the first or second first kiss. Eyes are so close to each other that, in all cases, there is nothing to be seen unless your eyes are at the tip of the tongue!

It is hard for me to believe that you were not even born when I was the leader of a bloody kindergarten gang , raiding girls and making sure they would cry.
You were not even a concept!
One of the amazing things granted to mankind only, distinguishing us from animals, is this ability to desire older, younger or same sex beings.

I love this temporal surface between us: it is like a snowboard slope onto which my desire freecarves.

Hear the snow,

feel me shiver.

Enjoying life is never remembering that you already had a bite.
What can be better than looking at someone living to the fullest when you already had your feast? How much better can you understand these smiles and embrace this happiness?

Then, there was this part of the evening when we got apart: you were then the center of attention, superb arabian princess.
That’s when I realized I was still sooooo fuckin’ drawn.

I came back home singing, full of you: the city was buzzing and smiling away. I was roaring.

I hailed a cab for the last remaining 500 meters: I didn’t know where I was anymore.

The following day, I was hovering above the ground because you had stolen my heavy heart.

In my mouth, I had yours.

Since, I’m feeling like you are inside me, all over but also inside everyone I am not talking to about you.