Monday, July 31, 2006

The King, The Queen and The Fool

It is early morning, sitting in my couch I think about my good friends going through the Lovers’ game and unfortunately not getting the best out of it.
It reminds me of these moments when I was caught in the middle of the insane game, in the fight of every minutes against the world and myself.
It is amazing how strong you believe that the one you aim at came along when you needed a savior.
Relying on the person, feeling the support and believing that this one savior will pull you through somehow. But we all know that the past is heavy and that because you have been torn apart so many times, you are counting on the other one now.

By doing this you just expose your chest again even if someone already broke your heart.
This very moment will always fascinate me.
It is no rational and goes against anything a normal human being would advise, but then all normal human beings have done it more than once.
Someone already broke your heart, and yet you are going to letthis happen again.
Somebody did break your heart but maybe you need more pain.

So, here you are and all you beg for is not to be left stranded.
You stress and wonder.
All your reality doesn’t worth anything because you hang on the edge of a lie.
But who the hell is lying?
Your previous wounds weren’t as healed as you thought: torn apart, broken hearted all you want is care and kindness. You want someone by your side, because you are cold and lonely.
You want someone to hold you tight and never leave. You are down on your knees and afraid, you hope to have someone supporting you.
You are in Love and you bleed because you don’t know...
That’s the very moment you become monarchy.
You are the King or the Queen of your own sorrows.
In this chess of Love, are you really King/Queen or more the fool?
You are playing but you don’t wanna lose.
It would break your heart, torn you apart.
That’s when you are fully you.
Your soul tries to reach out and jumps out of your skin. This isn’t pain you feel, this is excitement.
This passion burns you, consumes you.

If you don’t act you will torn yourself apart and break someone’s heart.
Because you both are on the edge of the same lie!!!
Because you both are monarchy, I am the fool.
Jut act.

La boucle est bouclee.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

It means that you are alive. And the only way to know it is to enjoy or to soffer, only then you know that you exist.

Cherry! said...

It's about taking risks. Nothing verntured, nothing gained right?

Mister Wing said...

momo:
so the only way to feel alive is to enjoy or suffer?
Why does it sound right?

cherry:
I agree but you can gain without taking risks also... And that doesn't make what you gained worth less.

Cherry! said...

knock! knock!

Where are you?